Thursday, June 25, 2009

Sara and the Terrible, Horrible, No good, Very bad day

Hey there blogging buddies. Just having a rough day and could use some words of encouragement. Nothing major going on, just the same struggles. I am tired. I try so hard to be positive, and fun and look for the silver linings, but right now it doesn't seem like the linings are all a yucky, poopy color. I have tried to endure the trials I have been given with minimal complaining and to "put my big girl panties on and deal with it" but I am kinda feeling like what is the point anymore? I have two beautiful kids, and a handsome loving husband, and the gospel and that should be enough. Most of the time it is. But not today.
I am tired of struggling. Money, this job, my weight, balancing my kiddos with this new job, losing Emma, getting used to a new place, sick kids (that is right, Jackson has pneumonia, again, and Madilyn has a sinus infection and eye infection) and lastly, ouchy bad knees. Why? I look at everyone else's life and it looks really good right now. I have tried to be a good person, tried to do whats right, tried my hardest. I really have, and despite my best efforts I am just treading water today. Tomorrow will be better. It always is. But if anyone has any kind, encouraging words, or if you just want to tell me how great I am and how things will be ok, feel free. I could use them.
PS. Jackson is doing great with going pee in the potty, but I am having a hard time getting him to go poop. Any secret voodoo Mommy tricks? I am not above bribery, but so far that hasn't worked.


The Carpenter Family said...

Everyone has these will be okay, you are a great mom! just keep on keeping on, tomarrow will be better!! oh and remember to keep smiling cause i swear when you do you look like and remind me Cameron Diaz!!

Justin said...

Hey honeybunny,

I agree with the Cameron Diaz line.
You'll be ok, even though lots of little things are out of whack right now.

Love you.

Cristina said...

I Love you!!! I think you are an amazing person and an amazing mom. I have always looked up to you and I always will. And I know that no matter what is going on in life, I can always talk to you because you will give me your best and nothing less. I know what you mean about tomorrow. It always is better, but sometimes it's nice to just hear "you're right, life does suck right now." I hope you know you can always talk to me. I love you!

Megan said...

I hope you are feeling better. Being a 1L's wife is pretty challenging. I say that you need some retail therapy, even if you are just looking.

Deborah said...

Hey Sara,

You are great. I always enjoy your company. Your family is blessed to have such a great mother. Good luck with the new job. Oh, and I always thought you looked like Reese Witherspoon but either way you are beautiful!

Trevor and Brianne said...

Hey Miss Sara,
We need to catch up.
I wish I could bring you some Sprinkles coconut cupcakes and an extra large QT. That always gets me through the tough days... that and Oregano's. Our last month has been really rough and you know I feel your pain with regards to sick kids. Hope it is getting easier.
I miss you!

The Turnarounds said...

Hey I"m glad that I found your blog!! You really are a GREAT Person! Thank you for being such a good friend to me, you were even an excelent VT, especially when I needed that VT friend.
I'm sorry that it was a rotten day. I've had some of those lately too. Out of the 6 1/2 years years that Aaron and I have been married 5 of them have felt like constant tribulation. It is hard not to look around at others in their happy lives and feel as though things aren't fair, especially when you are doing your best and striving to do good.
I watched a movie the other night called Faith Like Potatoes, and it helped me feel better. (Maybe I enjoyed because it has potatos and I'm from Idaho. Okay that's not why, but it helped me get regathered gave me hope. Now that I wore out you eye balls with this long post, here is my ph# if you would like to give me a call. I would Love to Catch up!
I hope that today has been a better day. You deserve it!!!

The Turnarounds said...

Oops, I forgot to give you my #, (208)681-2207.

The Woolner Family said...

Just remember, Heavenly Father thinks you're doing an awesome job! So many kids have crack whore moms, so give yourself some credit. No one said you had to do it perfectly every day of your life. Trust me. I'm learning everyday that whatever patience I have or ask for, it's never quite enough. You may not have time to hunker down with your favorite movie, but a bath and a massage from your husband is always a very good option.

Kamarah said...

Hey its been two months almost since you posted but keep on trucking sara! You can do it!